I've been meaning to write for a long time now - and I even have various drafts saved. Titles and beginnings of thoughts and lessons, but I haven't been able to finish any of them. There is something about posting unfinished thoughts that doesn't seem quite right to me. I don't feel I can write about lessons I'm learning because I'm not finished learning them yet, I don't know the outcome and I don't have any inspirational words of encouragement because I'm still going through the same challenges and making the same mistakes every single day. I was sharing this other day, and some very wise people (a.k.a Mum & Dad), simply said 'life is the lesson'. To me, this is frustrating. I know life is the lesson, but within that comes small lessons and I really would just like to be done with them. Though lessons from our Father are never little or insignificant, I really would just like the answer and for it to be easy. Again, life doesn't quite work like that.
Then, He reminded me of all that He has been telling me. 'Come, I am enough'. He has promised me that when I come to Him I will find rest for my soul, and that He will take my heavy burden because His is light! When I feel overwhelmed and frustrated and stressed, instead of turning to friends, or a good movie, music, books or chocolate or whatever it is we turn to, that He is right there waiting for me to simply come to Him. When I don't want to face writing about leaving, because my feelings on the subject change every 5 minutes, He tells me to come. He tells me that He is enough, and that He is unchanging. That I can stand on His promises and His Word because the same God that led me to Thailand is the same one that is taking me home. When I have to trust new people with my precious children, He reminds me that they are His. When I want to pull my hair out because school isn't going the way it's 'supposed to', He reminds me that it's His. And He is enough. And when the lesson of life seems too challenging, and too hard, He reminds me that I am His, and He is enough. That in His presence is fullness of joy and He will always be enough wherever I find myself, in whatever situation. He is enough in my sadness, in my joy, in my frustration and stress, and in the times where life is just a little bit overwhelming.
Today is my 18th birthday, and it feels like life's lessons are just beginning. And in some ways, I have never felt more like a child. And some may even argue I still look like a child considering the lack of growth that has taken place over the past few years. I am so thankful for the past 18 years and for how incredibly blessed I have been. I have a mighty long way to go, but I pray that He will always be enough for me. That I would continue to seek Him and delight in His Word.

What would a birthday post be without a baby picture? And I really mustn't look that young as I received a birthday card this morning saying 'Happy birthday to you, Happy birthday to you, You look like a grown up, and you act like one too!' Hmm...